About Me
Where I got to, before I started healing, is actually sad because I wasted a great deal of my life allowing myself to be manipulated. Like a puppet on strings that were cut away one at a time until I hit the ground, shattering down to my soul.
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The child in me - always seeking perfection, believing that love was based on my worth;
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The empath - never wanting anyone to feel as trapped and lost as I did, even if I gave pieces of myself away in the process;
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My darkness -buried deepest beneath my protection mask -hiding its shame, guilt, embarrassment.
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And the survivor - called on much too early, holding all the mismatched pieces together; cursing every time I'd get close to making my way out, only to be pulled back.
But broken pieces can only be held in place for so long, even by the strongest among us. June 6, 2018, for me, was the day my warrior couldn't keep my mask in place any longer.
1969
My first picture almost looks like I knew the chaos I was being born into. But even if I did, there was no way to foresee all the twists and turns I'd experience on my journey through life.
Inner Child
Looking back, I realize that this was a time that wove itself deep into the fabric of my life.
The concept of the inner child represents the part of us that retains the innocence, creativity, and emotional experiences of our childhood. Embracing this aspect can lead to profound healing and self-discovery, allowing us to reconnect with our true selves and address unresolved feelings from our past. By nurturing our inner child, we can foster a sense of joy and playfulness in our lives, ultimately enhancing our emotional well-being and resilience. Engaging with this inner aspect encourages us to express our needs and desires authentically, paving the way for healthier relationships and a more fulfilling life.
Shadow Work
The shadow lurks just beyond our awareness, always present yet often overlooked. In the light of our consciousness, we inevitably cast a shadow, representing the parts of ourselves that remain hidden. Engaging with this shadow can unlock a path to greater authenticity, inner resilience, enhanced creativity, and a deeper sense of awakening. Shadow work is not just beneficial; it is essential for achieving true self-knowledge and growth.
Grief
Grief is so much more than mourning. It's the bridge between what was and what will be. Our kids grow up and move out -that's a good thing- but we still have to process that change and the grief that comes with it. In order to move forward to the new life adventure, the past has to be put in its place.
The Divine Whole
The idea of unity and interconnectedness in the universe, suggests that everything is part of a greater, harmonious existence, where each element contributes to the overall balance and purpose. Embracing this perspective can lead to a deeper understanding of our place in the world, fostering a sense of belonging and responsibility towards one another and the environment. By recognizing the divine whole, we can cultivate compassion and strive for a more cohesive and peaceful society.
Healing after trauma is a journey that takes time and patience. It involves understanding and processing the feelings that come up, like sadness or anger. Talking to friends, family, or a therapist can really help, as sharing experiences often makes them feel less heavy. Finding activities that bring joy, like art or sports, can also be a great way to cope and rebuild a sense of normalcy. Remember, everyone heals at their own pace, and it's okay to seek support along the way.
I have created and re-created my vision so many times, I've lost count. My goal is to share my journey, offer resources, and maybe help someone else find their own path. The world owes us nothing, but together, we can be so much greater.
"The whole is greater
than the sum of its parts."
-Aristotle
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